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"Show me, LORD, my life’s end and the number of my days; let me know how fleeting my life is."

My name is Grace. I love writing, photography, and wearing cardigans.

Welcome to my first Project 365. Although my 365 is now over, feel free to look around. :) After a break from shooting, I plan to start a new photography project for 2012. Stay tuned!

Start: January 2, 2011
End: January 1, 2012

Flickr: http://www.flickr.com/photos/writrgrl/


Theme by Day LP.
7th
November

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310/365 Recently I’ve been thinking a lot about Judas.  Last week in Bible study we were on the topic of “love” and reading through the Last Supper. The point of the study was to evaluate the relationship between Jesus and the disciple Peter at the Last Supper, when Jesus washed His disciples’ feet, but all I could think of was how Jesus washed the feet of the man He knew would be responsible for His death as well. He did not humiliate Judas for his sin, for his crime, but instead the Creator of the Universe got on his knees and scrubbed Judas’ toes. For me, that moment revealed the depth of Jesus’ love. As Christians, we are supposed to live as Christ did. We are supposed to love as He loves. I have been struggling with loving certain people in my life recently, and those people are definitely not plotting to have me murdered for a bag of silver. They are simply being faulted humans, just like me, and yet I am withholding love from them. I am getting frustrated and constantly complaining about them and have said some horrible things and yet they are also children of God, loved and adored in their brokenness by the Father. How is it that I can’t find the desire to love them as well? If I can’t love those who get under my skin and make me angry, how will anyone love me? 
28th
October

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300/365 Well here we are at Day 300. I spent today sliding on wet leaves as I wandered around my grandparents’ property in the rain. I watched my breath turn to fog. I drank homemade apple cider and got to see my family. I talked over my theoretical school plans with my mom.  I think I’ve decided to stay.
20th
October

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292/365 Today I went through some more of my pictures from my adventure last weekend.  I also felt a lot calmer today about life in general. I woke up early and the wind was howling outside and the sky was overcast. I bundled up in my peacoat and wore my red hat and sipped some hot beef stew between classes. I love fall, but I think I love the transition period between fall and winter even more. Everyone throws on layers to keep warm, but we end up shivering anyway. My breath fogs the air and my styrofoam coffee cup is hot in my hands. There are so many extremes during this time - you’re struck by the raw air that slides up your jacket sleeves and curls around your neck and then you’re taken off-guard by the welcoming heat inside. I feel different in the winter, I feel like this is my element.  I feel like someone can love me when it’s cold. 
17th
October

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288/365 Like ships in the nightYou keep passing me byWe’re just wasting timeTrying to prove who’s right - Mat Kearney, “Ships in the Night” Today I ended things with guy-from-the-dining-hall. It went horribly. He didn’t understand why and it’s difficult to explain a God thing to someone who doesn’t believe.  The thing is, I could see things working out. I could easily see myself keeping my mouth shut and letting us continue and contented myself in this moment, in this now, but later it would’ve been a mess. And it would’ve torn me up. The inability to share my relationship with God with the person I care about is a breaking point for me.  Sometimes it feels horrible to do the right thing. And I didn’t even do it well. I was tactless and panicked.  I just need to sleep. 
15th
October

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287/365 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OR7VOKQ0xJY (My friend Katy introduced me to Gungor just yesterday and I can’t stop listening to them.) Today I went exploring with Chelsea, who I shot just a few days back on Day 283. We found an old town filled with abandoned buildings and beautiful trees. Then we went up to Mountain Lake, where the movie Dirty Dancing was filmed. The lake has dried up, but in the basin there were old trees and remnants of a boat dock. As we walked along the dry lake bed, I was inspired again and again, both by nature and by my conversation with Chelsea. Last night was rough, as I found myself in a difficult moment of clashing beliefs at 2 AM. There have been many times in my life where being a child of Christ hasn’t been easy, and last night was one of them. It’s hard when you disagree with someone you care about, especially about values, and I’m not willing to compromise my values to keep someone in my life.  “You are cherished,” Chelsea told me today. I’m just trying to remind myself of that. 
15th
October

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285/365 (Another shot from my photojournalism portrait project.) This is Alex.  80 days left. 
12th
October

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284/365 This song has been in my head for days: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nUMmHU7H5SY Another GPOY, courtesy of my friend Devon. We went down to the duck pond last week and I took some shots of her (Day 275) and she got some of me, but today’s been the first moment I’ve had to sit down and go through the rest of our pictures from that afternoon.  Still considering my two graduation dates. For those of you who pray, please keep me in your prayers. I would really appreciate it. 
11th
October

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283/365 This is Chelsea. She’s the student president of the BCM (Baptist Collegiate Ministries) at my school.  Today I finished my second photojournalism project. That class has really been a struggle for me lately. I want to submit work that I’m proud of and that I’ve had time to plan for, but time and time again I find myself shooting in the last fading hours of daylight the night an assignment’s due. Time management’s going to be the death of me. The course timetable for next semester opened up a few days ago and I sat down tonight  just to get an idea of what spring might look like for me. To my surprise, I realized that I could graduate this summer - an entire year early. I could finish up my major requirements this spring and take a few classes over the summer and be completely done. I would already have a place to live and a job during the summer months as well.  Honestly, I didn’t think this was possible. Last semester I considered graduating early and thought I would have to take more classes and have added stress - but now it seems shockingly easy. I thought graduating in the fall would be the automatic answer, but now I’m not so sure. There are pros and cons of each, but wow, I just didn’t know things could wrap up this fast. I have different opportunities with both, going abroad with one friend or moving to Seattle with one of my current roommates.  This is God’s. This entire situation is in His hands. There are things that must fall together for either graduation scenario to work, and He has to make them fall. I can’t put just my wants into this - I discovered that hard truth last semester when I tried to transfer schools for one guy.  And now there’s a new guy. Each day I feel like I screw up or say something stupid but each day is another fresh start. There are a lot of unknowns in my life right now, but also a lot of opportunities for living and for chasing what God has planned. Maybe it’s staying put until next Christmas. Maybe it’s leaving at the end of this summer. But the beautiful thing is that everything is in God’s control - I don’t have to worry about tomorrow. 
11th
October

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282/365 Today was Monday. I had the greatest intention of writing out a lengthy post but when I got home I fell asleep. 
10th
October

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281/365 Today I said goodbye to my family and headed back to school. Each time I go back to my hometown I’m reminded of how beautiful it is. I definitely didn’t appreciate it enough when I was in high school. All I could think about was how much I wanted to escape and see the rest of the world.